Lindsay: 0:00

I was definitely willing to have an emergency C section right then and there. I told everybody in the room, I'll do it. Put me out. I want her safe. Let's go. And I'm like, just know that I just ate. They're like, okay.

Jordan: 0:20

Hello, Lindsay. Hello. Hi. How are you doing? Good. I'm pretty good. Good. Feeling up to the brave task of sharing your birth story?

Lindsay: 0:30

Yeah. Yeah. Quite interesting one. Cool. Yeah. We all have an interesting one. Yeah. I don't think there's a birth story that's not interesting. Yeah. And not similar to anyone else's. At all. Yeah. We all. Yeah. I mean, there's like. I think there

Jordan: 0:45

are lots of shared experiences for sure. Yeah. Yeah, definitely.

Lindsay: 0:49

So yeah, we have a birth story, I have, I've given birth once, my daughter, she'll be two this winter, so she's only a year and a half, But yeah, I feel like I remember it like that yesterday. Yeah, good. I wonder how long that feeling will be.

Jordan: 1:03

Do you

Lindsay: 1:04

remember yours like yesterday?

Jordan: 1:05

Most of it, yeah. Like, some bits are really hazy and blocked out. Not like blocked out, but like, I got very, very tired. You've probably all heard my breast story already. It was long and grueling. Yeah. And I didn't sleep very much for like three straight days. I

Lindsay: 1:18

hope your next one's quick. Yeah. I mean like, quick and comfortable.

Jordan: 1:24

Yeah. I mean, I, like, at the end of the day, it's one of those things that like, doesn't matter. Sure. Cause you're like, that

Lindsay: 1:31

was only How many hours was it? 39. You're like, that was 39 hours of my life. I'm not gonna like dwell on it. Yeah.

Jordan: 1:39

And like, I think I said, it's one of those experiences where like, You have no choice but to get through it. Yep. It's so true. So you get through it. Yes.

Lindsay: 1:49

You're so right. You, that baby's coming out.

Jordan: 1:51

Yeah. Totally. And you want it to come out. Of course. And you want everything to go. Yes. So yes.

Lindsay: 1:57

Okay. So the way mine came out. Tell us. Tell us all. Oh, I was induced. Yes. Yes. I went and took that route. This wasn't my first choice. I don't want to be induced. I'm kind of like in the boat with Jordan where, oh, medicine and drugs just do me dirty. And I'm not somebody that wants to be medicated up. I don't feel well when I'm that medicated up and pushing and forcing things along. But, here's the deal. I Um, my daughter was supposed to be due December 23rd. That is my birthday. She's not getting born on my birthday. She could totally have been born on my birthday. But I really didn't want, I wasn't sure if I, I would have taken that sacrifice and she could have been born on my birthday and I would have gone through that pain and hell. But. I also didn't want to risk her being born on Christmas Day or Christmas Eve.

Jordan: 2:58

And having all the Christmases and birthdays stacked up like they are in your family is already a little bit of a bummer. Yeah,

Lindsay: 3:05

my husband's birthday is just the week after. And already Christmas has kind of felt like too much. Like, yeah, I think

Jordan: 3:12

everyone thinks Christmas is too much. Plus then two birthdays on top of it. Now we have three. Yeah. So everyone understands. Yeah. And now we have

Lindsay: 3:21

three birthdays and, so I chose the induction route. Just to separate that distance as much as you could. Yeah. Yeah, I was like, you know, I think it'd be great to be home. Hopefully be home by Christmas with my newborn baby. There's also

Jordan: 3:35

something to be said for like, maybe it didn't matter so much for you, but would have for me, uh, getting, having that birth on the same deductible as everything else. Oh, sure. Making sure she didn't go into the new year. Yeah. Yeah. That's what I would have been thinking. Yeah.

Lindsay: 3:50

Yeah. Yeah, absolutely. Um, so. I got induced. We went in. We, okay, mind you, it's Christmas. Family's showing up. We're getting all the things ready. It's kind of starting to feel like a whirlwind. It doesn't really feel like it's about to happen. That I'm going in to have a baby because I'm hosting Christmas. People are arriving. What's the meal plan while I'm gone? And then by hosting Christmas

Jordan: 4:18

she does mean, like, relatives staying. Well, I guess they didn't stay at your house this time. Yeah. Typically they do. I think that was

Lindsay: 4:26

like the first time we didn't

Jordan: 4:27

have them stay. Yeah. Makes sense. Yeah. But

Lindsay: 4:30

they were at

Jordan: 4:30

her house like all day every day. Yeah. And I was still in hosting mode. Yeah. Totally. Yeah.

Lindsay: 4:35

I was not like, fully checked into about to have a baby. I just knew she was, you know, gonna arrive any day and gave me, like, the butterflies and the giddies, if you will. Yeah. Because I expected it and I knew. And you knew that the induction day was coming up. Which did, give me someone that had, has the whole fear of the unknown thing, like, some comfort.

Jordan: 4:54

I'm sure.

Lindsay: 4:56

Yeah, there's some comfort there in like knowing, okay, I'm going in the night before to start the cervix softening and all, all of the above. Okay. So I eat my wonderful, like energy thriving meal for dinner the night before. I am supposed to go to the hospital the night before to start the cervix softening process. Get my room, get all set up, spend the night in the hospital, okay, we're probably going to have the baby in the morning sometime. So I have my wonderful, delicious meal, my husband and I are driving to the hospital, we're holding hands and we're like, okay, this is all crazy, this is happening, yadda yadda yadda. get to the hospital, get all checked in. Everyone's very excited for us to be induced. The nurse is excited to see me throughout, through the night. The front desk chick is excited for me to fill out my paperwork. We're all feeling giddy. You know? Yeah. I'm there for about an hour. And we start the cervix softening. And, you know what I said earlier? You know what I said earlier that my body is just like a little sensitive to meds? Oh, yeah. This is a, like, kind of minor medication. This is the first, like, minor medication that I'm about to, like, start while I'm here at this hospital. And I am up on all fours with an intense contraction that would not let up on my child. So

Jordan: 6:22

after having taken the first medication, the first

Lindsay: 6:25

of, I think they were supposed to get four cervix softening pills and I only got one. And it was

Jordan: 6:29

the cervix softener that made you like tighten. Yeah. I didn't

Lindsay: 6:33

get like any other kind of medication on board. Nothing. That was it. And I was supposed to enjoy that and sleep through the night. However, minutes after having Matt, I, I'm, How do they,

Jordan: 6:45

how do they give you that medication? They

Lindsay: 6:46

insert it. Oh, vaginal. Into your vaginal. Okay. So, I am someone that works in healthcare, so I'm watching all of the monitors like a hawk. And I know what's all happening, and I'm watching the monitor, and the contraction won't let up. And I'm like, um, uh, is something wrong with the equipment? Because equipment issues are a big thing in the operating room or maybe on the floor. It's always the equipment that's wrong first. However, I all of a sudden got super nauseous. Oh dear. And I hit that red button and all of a sudden there were like 12 people in the room and they were like on all fours and like trying to get this contraction to let up. So that's where you were on all fours. Yes. On the bed. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So they have you in a certain position. I was laying down like normally. Um, get it. I had my cervix softener pill and ready to soften me up and ready to relax. And they were like, flip up on your knees and hands, hands and knees. We got to get this like contraction to lighten up. So that's when the strong beds came through. So that's when I got a shot for making the contraction stop. I see. So that sends your body through an essentially like an adrenaline rush and you shake uncontrollably. It's almost like you're so cold, like you're just uncontrollably shaking. And it takes some time for your body to come out of that shaking. I was definitely willing to have an emergency C section right then and there. I told everybody in the room, I'll do it. Put me out. I want her safe. Let's go. And I'm like, just know that I just ate. They're like, okay. Yeah. So they're like, okay, uh, we'll just, you know, now that you've had to see what happens, they get ahold of the OB is not there at the hospital in the evenings, they're on call. And so they're communicating with the OBGYN and, just no more cervix happenings throughout the night. We'll start Pitocin later on. So, we calm down from the shaking and then, you know, we just kind of take a rest. everyone's watching my vials pretty closely and watching the contractions for a while just to make sure that they're back on track. and these are like Braxton Hicks contractions, they're not like serious. Okay, not like labor contractions. But I think that for softening pills, like started kicking them into gear. Hazy. This is the part where it's hazy for me because I was like, Adrenaline rush? What the hell just happened? How do I, like, re frame my mindset from that to going through the rest of the night? Yeah, because I was fully unexpected. When am I going to expect, the starting process of this all? And how's it going to go now that I don't have cervical softener? So I was pretty, like, I was asking, like, a lot of questions, like, hey, how's my body going to react to pitocin? You know, what are the cocktails, I know, so they were watching me pretty closely husbands like in and out of sleep, I don't even remember what time I got my pitocin, somewhere in the middle of the night, I don't know. Like maybe before midnight. I don't even remember. Like my body had come down. Did they give

Jordan: 9:56

it to you earlier than they were, than they had planned because the cervical softeners weren't going to jive with you? I

Lindsay: 10:05

don't know. I don't remember. Okay. They probably did. Cause they probably want to get the process like going. Cause they were like, okay, well, she's not going to have this. Then we may as well just start a little dose. Yeah. Yeah, there's like all these like random factors. Obviously, that just goes to prove to show you that like someone can go in for an induction and things can change. Yeah, like the trajectory and their schedule of their birth can completely change the way the night goes and the morning goes the next day for staff. So, at that point I was like, damn, that was when I really wish I would have gone natural. So I was having that like, kind of battle with like, what am I doing? Like, was this the right choice sort of thing? Yeah. So that's where I was just like, okay, you're in the hospital, your daughter's gonna be here. Yeah. in the morning sometime, somewhere safe. And I was just trying to talk my, give myself like all the truths in the situation. And I was like, you are going to have more births in your life. You can reevaluate for those later. Yeah. Yeah. So, so I, at some point I got Pitocin. I don't recall the time, like I said, but that kicked things into gear quite fucking quickly. Crazy. I was expecting that to be an issue. ease into contractions and ease into the whole labor process. Dude, I couldn't get a breath in between contractions. What? That's the same. They were like every 30 seconds. I mean, they went from like minutes to like every 30 seconds pretty quickly. And I was like, my breathing, I can't let, you know, I was just getting like more frustrating. Yeah. And here's the thing about going. in at night time that I wish I would have had a Maybe like a doula for I wish I probably I was complaining about having a doula with this pregnancy going back and forth That's something that's not covered in insurance. It's another expense I already worked, I've worked in a healthcare field in that, in that setting for so, so long that I like justified not having one, but when I went, yeah, but I would, because I went in at night, there's not as many staff on the, on board per patient as there is during the day. And so you have one nurse to however many patients. Mm hmm. And so I felt some semi lonely. Oh, so. I had my husband there and I was breathing. But like, I didn't have that person to kind of like, calm me down when my mind starts racing. Like, what am I doing? Should I have like had a natural birth or how can someone remind me to chill and breathe in 30 second break? Kind of a thing. Like I just didn't have like the 30 seconds. I did not have a break to catch my breath. And so I had to give into the epidural. Yeah. I really tried really hard. And I was also being in a mindset, being cautious for that anesthesiologist. Yeah. And their timing. Yeah. And not thinking about myself and like when I really needed the epidural. Which

Jordan: 13:02

is the tricky part, probably, of working in healthcare fields. Yeah, because I'm like,

Lindsay: 13:05

okay, if I wake them, I don't know if it's he or she on, I haven't, well, I mean, I met them when I had to be up on all fours. Yeah. And it was a dude and I was like, I don't want to wake him up right now because if I wake him up right now, he's not going to be able to fall back to sleep for the rest of the night. Very thoughtful. I know. So that's what's like, isn't that, that's crazy. How like my mind like went there. I was that checked out of my own like body because I couldn't get my breath like under control. I was like, I'm not here anymore. So that kind of like, I just, I reflect a lot on that and I look and like figure out like, okay. They. It's their job to be up all night long and it's their job to fall right back to sleep if they've been up. Like they,

Jordan: 13:54

that's what they're trained to do. Yeah.

Lindsay: 13:56

Yeah. So like when I went ahead and made the call for the epidural, like I said, I forgot, I don't even remember what time, but I made sure it was on time that they could fall back to sleep. Do

Jordan: 14:05

they, do

Lindsay: 14:05

they sleep at the hospital

Jordan: 14:07

and

Lindsay: 14:07

they're just on call and they're not there? Typically they do if they have, like, depends on like the cases and who, what's going on What patients might need them like on the OB floor night that's, or if they live close by at home. I would've just thought there was an anesthesiologist awake at the hospital all night long. the hospitalist is, hmm, for the most part. The hospitalist? The hospitalist. So there's always a hospitalist and they're, they're the person, oh, you should look into this job. I would love to be a hospitalist, I think. So they're kind of like the ones that they can make the call with all the teams of like what to move. They're the coordinators? Yeah. Yeah. But I, I don't know what I was saying, but, um, So you woke up the anesthesiologist as well. I did, I woke him. How rude. I was like, okay, now's the time. I can't get my breath under control. And now we're pretty intense here. Uh huh. Um, and yeah, I, uh, things just like, we're moving so fast and, Um, Can catch my breath and needed the relief and I finally when I got that relief I Was so grateful for some rest I'm sure I'm sure that's how I felt too but it it did you know it sucks too because at the same time I felt like that's when I was asking the nurse to Help me like move from side to side more Now I need all of you to help me out. Yeah As much as I'm resting and getting like my space You No, I need your help. Uh, so, So they helped me in, but they kept my spirits up, my nighttime nurse was wonderful, and she was really hoping that she could, you know, my child was going to arrive before she had to leave for her shift, but that did not happen. But then morning crew comes in, everyone's excited. I'm stoked. Yeah. The teams at the hospital are so great. I have had experience working on the OB floor, like with, uh, when I have to come up and do like C sections and stuff. And man, everyone that's on the OB floor. happy angels, like ready, ready for anything. They're so happy. Yeah, yeah. They really are ready for everything, anything. So great place to be in the daytime. had much better experience and more positive vibes and really felt the love and the encouragement and the, during the whole process of things when they were really moving along. My OB had his hospital day. So my induction was meant for his hospital day so that he could potentially be the guy to deliver. And I felt comfortable with that. Yeah. I have, we go, uh, Jordan and I go to the same kind of group of OBs. I've met multiple of them and I felt comfortable to go with multiple of them if he couldn't do it. He did stay in the operating room because our timing for pushing was when operations were starting. Yeah, he, he was in the hospital, but he was not the gentleman to like deliver because his surgery schedule was there and those patients that need him to, for that too. So slightly bummed that we just had to call in a partner, took the partner a little bit. The nurses were like, Oh, should we give her another dose of like this med, these medications for her epidural because there's a possibility she might be pushing and it might run out of time. And I was like, I don't want that to happen. Yeah. I don't want to be a full 10 CCs. You know, all of a sudden I didn't feel that go from nothing to feeling it. Yeah. That'd be tough. Yeah. Why were they, why were

Jordan: 17:28

they talking about not giving you more though?

Lindsay: 17:30

The timing of it they wanted to possibly like give another dose of it so that my timing because I had to wait for a part his Partner to come to the hospital. Oh So you might not have had like a doctor in time if they correct if I was pushing right and the epidural ran out Got it. Does that make sense? Yeah So I didn't want that to happen. I was like, put it on the tab. I'm not going from Let's get another round. I'm like, I'm not going from not feeling to feeling at all. In the midst of pushing. Especially not

Jordan: 18:05

after your experiences the night, like through the night with the Pitocin and the Cervical Softener. I'm sure that felt, that made it feel more intimidating. Yeah.

Lindsay: 18:14

I, you know, I even practiced like the whole hypno birthing thing like uh, the last few weeks and just trying to get like get my breath under control at home and to really practice that and the pitocin was so strong for me. You're just like, goodbye. Yeah, it was like okay, I'm not, I can't catch my breath and here we go. We need to We need to actually go for this. So, didn't have the natural birth, got the induction, like, got all the meds on board that I literally, like, wasn't planning on having, but I am also somebody that was, like, willing to plan A out the door. I want, I just want my child safe, sound, I don't care what kind of torture I need to, like, continue here. Yeah. She came like within a half hour after that. What? I'm fairly certain.

Jordan: 19:02

Yeah. So were you pushing? So I actually probably didn't,

Lindsay: 19:04

I don't know if I, yes, I don't know. Yeah, it was. I don't even know if I really needed the epidural, but the nurses were making me feel like I did. Okay.

Jordan: 19:10

So wait, so like the night goes on, you get your epidural. Yeah, the morning staff comes in. You're still

Lindsay: 19:16

on Pitocin. Yes, morning staff comes in. Morning staff comes in all ready to go. All giddy and they're like, Your, your doctor is staying in the surgery. We are calling his partner to come in. And he comes in. But we need you to push a couple of times. Okay, so you started pushing before the doctor got there.

Jordan: 19:30

Yes. Yeah. And then, like, they gave you more epidural. During the,

Lindsay: 19:33

during the pushing they're like,

Jordan: 19:34

Eventually he arrives.

Lindsay: 19:36

And that's what, yeah. Yeah, he comes, he arrives, then like his assistants are there and

Jordan: 19:42

okay. So, you weren't, like, pushing for half an hour before the doctor got there. Okay.

Lindsay: 19:46

No. I just had to wait, oh, which felt like forever for him to get home. Did you feel the urge to push while you were waiting? No, not at all. No. Not with, yeah. Even with having like the epidural and everything, I didn't feel an urge to push. They were just telling me to do it. I was like, okay, I'll do it.

Jordan: 20:01

And that's, and you got her out just fine without even like feeling the urge. Yeah. Wild. Cause I totally had the urge to push. Yeah. And it was strong. Yeah. It felt intense.

Lindsay: 20:10

Yeah. So, when he got there, then it was like game on, we're pushing. Yeah. And so Andrew was up at the leg with me, with the other nurse and. They were put, they were cheering me on and push, push, push. I think I was bearing down and I didn't even know I was bearing down cause I couldn't feel anything. And that's what you're not supposed to do. Correct. And that's how I, that's how I tore. so I tore and luckily he told me when he, uh, Um, she come ups on my chest and she, she's here, we're holding her and we're taking pictures quickly before she goes off with the nurses. And then at that point when she went off with the nurses to get like measured and you know, situated and yeah, that's when I pushed the placenta out and that was like, they were like, you do not have to push really hard for this, like in

Jordan: 20:55

general or just for you. So I'm curious about, uh, in general, they

Lindsay: 20:59

just told me in general, like you don't have to do really hard. Yeah. Just head out. Yeah. Yeah. So that came out all in one piece, which I'm so grateful for. Sometimes our placentas can get chipped or, you know, not chipped but like pieced and then you got a piece that's left in you and that can cause severe toxicity and like sepsis and all that. But that all came out in one nice thing. chunk, if you will. Yum. Yeah, not my favorite part of, like, the whole process. But they did ask me if I wanted to see, when I was pushing with the doctor, just before the doctor got there, the nurses were like, do you want a mirror? And I was like, absolutely not. Because a lot of, like, a lot of moms want to see what's going on and that might encourage them to, and I was like, no, I think it would freak me out even more. Yeah, I think I would say no to that, too. Because if I, like, saw her head, I'd be like, she's not breathing, or like, you know. Yeah, totally. So I, I passed on the mirror. I don't want to look, I just want to focus on like, her coming out safely. So yeah. Placenta, then stitching, I think I had stage two, rupture from pushing her and he, put in extra stitches that I did not know about at the time. Okay. Okay. Okay. He told me at the time that I ripped or that I had a stage two rupture. Yeah. which I was like, fine. That's normal typically for a first time. Yeah. Mom. Mm-Hmm. and thank God it's not a stage four Yeah. I was like, stage three or stage four would probably just be like, fuck. Um, but I was grateful that it was a Sage two. So he was telling me like what he's all doing, which I appreciate. However, I didn't know he was putting extra stitches in. Yeah, that's a bummer. Not the best feeling. Uh, to heal. So that got brought up, around my six week appointment. Cause I was like, this isn't like feeling good. This is feeling a little tight and like really sore. Cause I'm swollen from delivering vaginally and bruised. Yeah. This is like, this like tension with these extra stitches is like ruining me. Um, yeah. You know, you can do all the like the numbing cream and like the ice packs you want but It was like sending me over the edge. And so we had that discussion at the six week. And how did that go? It did not go as well as I wanted it to Our group is supposed to have a mental nurse on staff And she was not part of that appointment. I really wish she was I think it's really important to have You A mental health nurse at those six week checkups, you know, to really dive in because you're really these six week checkups here in America are like. Okay, you're all healed or yep, uh, you may, you might need to wait a little bit longer for physical activity, whether you, you know, and I got the okay to do physical activity except not ride a bike for a couple more weeks if I need, if I was a cycler or sure. And he was like, yeah. are you ready for birth control? You know what? and you're just like, what are you talking about? I am not having sex, but like, yeah, there are couples out there that do and don't want a

Jordan: 24:01

baby right away. Immediately. Yeah. I mean, and I get that. I wouldn't want to get pregnant weeks after I just delivered, but like at the same time I wouldn't, yeah, I'm with you on the, like, it wasn't really ready to have sex. Yeah. For months.

Lindsay: 24:15

Yeah. So anyways, like that all had something to do with like postpartum anxiety and postpartum depression moments too. And now I'm just reflecting a lot and journaling a lot about my experience and like what I've learned. It's very interesting. as somebody that has worked in healthcare field, I, one thing I was really worried about was paying attention too much to everyone else and what their job did a little bit. I was fairly nervous that I was just going to be paying attention to like everything that they were doing and not feeling checked in at all with myself. Semi. True. That happened to me. I was really afraid that it was all going to be all my attention was going to be on staff. It really wasn't. That's good. yeah. So just being a healthcare worker, I was just very like aware, more aware than like maybe somebody that isn't. Like they didn't even give me the option to have her when I was up on all fours and I, and I told them I will do this right now. And they were like, Oh, okay. Like they didn't even like mention it first to me. I mentioned it to them. Yeah. Cause I knew that that was a situation that they were contemplating thinking about. Yeah. Um, so just like things like that came in handy, but also like. Like I said, I just kind of wish I had had, more of support understanding what my body was going through.

Jordan: 25:35

Sure.

Lindsay: 25:36

Yeah. Than understanding what my body was going to go through with medication. Sure.

Jordan: 25:41

Yeah, that's something they should definitely like talk to. I mean, obviously no one was gonna, no one could have predicted that your cervical softening medication would have created such a reaction. But yeah, yeah, yeah, that's wild. And that's, yeah, as part of how like medication can be like a little freaky, but at the same time, you got to trust that you are doing the right thing and that your team's there and everything like that.

Lindsay: 26:03

so anyways, that's my crazy, weird, short, but like intense aftermath. That it gave. So how long

Jordan: 26:11

do you feel like you, it took you to kind of process the birth, or do you think you're still processing? Just over a year. Wow. Yeah. That's no joke, man. Yeah, because

Lindsay: 26:21

I feel like I. wasn't going to be ready to try again. Yeah. because we ended up getting, we did get pregnant. I talked about, I've shared it with this on here. We did get pregnant. Um, when my daughter was seven months old and I had that gnarly miscarriage that fall. So after that miscarriage, I was still in the process of processing and healing from my birth. and the aftermath of my birth and, it definitely was a year and a half. And then I was like, okay, yeah, I think I'm there. I think I'm ready to like, move forward now. And I've done my reflecting. I know what my plan is for the next time. And I know that there's going to be a plan A, plan B and C and D, maybe E. Yeah. But like, I definitely, um, wanted to make sure that the induction was not going to be a first choice again. So I was like, if we could try to not have a baby around Christmas time, that would

Jordan: 27:17

be good. Oh God. Yeah. I bet. So how do you feel now having had an induct? I mean, obviously like your experience with induction is probably a lot different to somebody's experience who, You know, I didn't have a reaction to the medication and like just had a nice positive thing. But are there any other things, that would keep you from having an induction again? Like what are your general feelings about being induced for the next one?

Lindsay: 27:41

I think just knowing the fact that if my next one is not due around a significant holiday is going to bring me down a huge notch of like I can be more chill to go in with a natural and experience all that. I am a okay to do an epidural again. That I'm okay with having, but I really will probably like, I'll have the chance to breathe and practice the whole contractions thing. Because they'll come slowly. Yeah, I didn't experience the contractions. Yeah, I went into the hospital and the first contraction I experienced I was up on all fours and it wouldn't let up on her So it was immediately like kind of like traumatizing to having a contraction Yeah So I was like waiting for the next contraction throughout all of that time to do it again And I was watching that damn monitor like okay, it's letting up good. We can move on to the next one Okay, this one's letting up Okay Like I was literally just watching the monitor to make sure that the contraction was not gonna hold on her

Jordan: 28:38

Yeah.

Lindsay: 28:38

And so I feel like that probably had me

Jordan: 28:40

checked out.

Lindsay: 28:41

Yeah. Or checked

Jordan: 28:42

into a very different place than you thought you'd be checked into. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So you'll avoid an induction in the future. Yeah. I'm gonna try. If you can. Yeah.

Lindsay: 28:51

Yeah. I'm gonna try.

Jordan: 28:53

Cool. So. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy.

Lindsay: 28:56

I'm glad that you were able to process

Jordan: 28:57

it all in the end. Yeah,

Lindsay: 28:59

it

Jordan: 28:59

takes a while though. Was there anything in particular, like I'm sure there are plenty of listeners out there who had a crazy birth story and they did a lot of processing themselves. Was there any specific, like, thing that you did that you think helped to actually get that processing done? Yeah, my therapist. Like, going through each

Lindsay: 29:15

step of my situation with my therapist. Just each literal step.

Jordan: 29:20

Individual therapist? Yeah. Or did you do this with your couples therapist too?

Lindsay: 29:23

Um, my couples therapist understands like the big moments and the, and the, and the outside factors that were going on to understand my depth of my situation being kind of like big, but my individual therapist was definitely my helper and.

Jordan: 29:39

And the process. Yep. Happened there.

Lindsay: 29:40

And I really had to like go through each step in my mind slowly. I mean, I'm sure. One month at a time almost. Yeah. Okay. Let's just talk about me asking me being worried about the answers, just being awake. Like, let's let's process that. Break this down.

Jordan: 29:58

Like, move on. You know. Yeah. Yeah, for sure. I mean, I was really thoughtful of you. Yeah. Yeah. Well, thank you. Thank you for sharing your story. Yeah. That's my little birth story. I'm excited to have another one to share.

Lindsay: 30:14

I know! Interesting to see if he arrives, like, on Halloween day or just before and, like, Oh, I hope it's, like, just before.

Jordan: 30:22

Just before

Lindsay: 30:23

would be

Jordan: 30:23

great. Oh. Yeah. So fun.

Lindsay: 30:25

I think it will if, if, if your daughter came early.

Jordan: 30:29

Yeah. It would make sense. Yep.

Lindsay: 30:31

Usually, and then the second birth is typically quicker than the first. Yeah.

Jordan: 30:34

Yeah. Crazy. Crazy to think about. How many more?

Lindsay: 30:38

Do we, are we even asking the question how many more Saturdays until? No, let's not. Oh my god, too

Jordan: 30:44

much. I can't. Oh gosh,

Lindsay: 30:48

it's just around the quarter. That's all we need to know.

Jordan: 30:50

Yeah, my third trimester starts tomorrow. Crazy. No. Wow. It's insane.

Lindsay: 30:58

Here we go. You're past like the rumored best trimester. I guess it's rumored that your second trimester is like the best. I feel like mine was probably the, uh, mine was the first time

Jordan: 31:11

for sure.

Lindsay: 31:11

Yeah.

Jordan: 31:12

But yeah. Anyway, thanks for joining in everybody. Um, first

Lindsay: 31:19

story. If you have any questions about any of that, please let me know. I can go into more depth.

Jordan: 31:25

Yeah. And we'll talk to you all soon. Give us a follow, like subscribe. We have kid pod, we have kid podcast. We have the kids. Jesus Christ.

Lindsay: 31:35

Can you tell that Jordan's almost in her third trimester? She's checked

Jordan: 31:41

up. Yep. It's nap time. Yep. Alright, cool. Yeah, we'll talk to you all soon. Okay, bye. Cheers, bye.